my world's falling apart..into pieces..so small that i can't pick them up anymore..what's life for in the first place? people tell me to enjoy life whenever you can..but i can't. or i don't get the chance to. cos life's not enjoyable in the very first place. so how on earth are you gonna enjoy it? to me, the real life is when i die. you know..when you get to lie in that wooden box. to enjoy peace. finally. oh. how i wish for that day to come manz. don't see what's the point in working so hard. when you do something for somebody, or try to correct that person, that person goes like: you trying to pick on me or something? my mom's worse. she goes like: what kind of crap is that. all you're saying are lies. god sees your lies. and one day punishment will come. then she goes on: im not cursing you or anything you know..yea right. you're NOT cursing me you know..what kind of shit is that? and btw. i don't see what she sees in studies. everything comes behind studies. all i know is that studies has just totally numbed my mom's feelings. she can just go on and on and on and on and on about how important studies are. and all you say to her are just crap. lies. she claims everything that she says is right. so right that i don't even get to open my mouth. studies are not everything you know. studies can't grant you everything. like love. feelings. and i don't see what's so good. yea. people start praising you, say what, you're so smart, so smart. yea. smart so what? in the end you'll just become a total NUT. and they reward you with this useless piece of paper. sighz. someone take me away from this living hell. bring me to the real world. the real world. that's where i really want to go..